Tu me manques toujours.

I'm still holding back to u. Don't wished you felt annoying anymore. Maybe a month or few to flee against you? No one knows.
Sometimes, I would like to tell someone my feeling, but no one knows. Even they would like to heard about it, but just for nothing. I don't have many friends that can share some feels with me and sometimes not even a friend that know me thoroughly, indeed.

Because sometimes it's hard to tell someone what you feeling when you bleeding and he's not. The pain that like operating a surgery without any drugs or narcotic. 

For someone who really knows me, I wouldn't like to share somethings with you maybe, because that I already take anythings to myself and own to cure itself.

Sometimes, you must know no one can help u, except yourself. That's what I'm doing to hidden somethings to you all. If you know me, please don't unravel the masked me. Thanks.

Keiner ist so blind, wie diejenigen, die nicht sehen werden.

......

She doesn't replied.

I'm rushing to back home so I meandered nonchalanty out of she emotion and get back home briskly.

After the day is her day , birthday, luckily it's also the day that our students need to back school during holiday to check our pt3 exam paper. I have ready a present for her before a month and maybe more. A jar with full of notes and chocolates to her , but it's not perfect because the time is not enough to me for make it more nice for her. I'm so regretted, indeed.

I didn't passed her the present by myself but by my friend, grabbed it and simply passed to her. After she get it, she texted me .......

00:00 HAPPY BIRTHDAY xxx

THANKYOU XAVIER

Eh tmr if u after school free d hua take pic lo

Ogei

I get in to science stream ! thanks for your wish hahahhah

Thankyou for ur presen too eh!

I go back home oni watch hahahah

Congrats!

then i acted the present that not i gave her, but at last she also guessed out.

After that day, she sent me a message that rejected me about liking her. Yeah, I hope I was not crying that time too just my tears stream down along my cheeks. I was not purposely, indeed.

That's 2015 ,let's back until now.

2016/3/24

I am liking and chasing her approximately half years ( 5months ), but I couldn't even get her attention anymore. She started to not talking at me , chatting with me, not even wanted to say hi with me. Someday, she doesn't wanted to see me, none are so blind as those who won't see. Yeah, my heart was tremendously fked up. 

I think before to teach her physics, because she is not good at it, but how? She doesn't let our friendships going on either. I hate her to think too much that she's owe me so much.That's because nothing to worried about this.

I done notes for her, but I took back from her.  I scared she feels annoyed , yeah she did.

I buy food and drink for her . I scared she feels hungry because going meeting and wasted the recess time for eating. but she returned it.

I wanted to say hi to her, but she doesn't wanted to look at me even she saw and knew me beside or behind her.

Haha , maybe it's just a thing i should undergo which liking a person and chasing a person that won't make each of us being good as earlier, it's just getting worse. I felt like I am so dumb. DUMB. Because I keep doing something that just makes our distance being so far not even closer.

WELL PLAYED , Xavier.

兄弟 与 班之间的争论

你他妈以为你是谁？
我班人出事 ，你班人惹事，
最后说是误会。

你要吵 我肯定和你 吵，
但彼此都要知道 怎样吵，
大家都还是兄弟。

我不会在乎其他人怎样看，
我只在乎 你我 之间的承诺，
你答应过我 要改过，
就别再犯错。

有人惹你，兄弟我撑你，
没有什么过不去，只有再也回不去。

你我有了新兄弟，
我们还是兄弟 心知 心明就好，
可是谁要动我兄弟，我就要谁命。

既然得罪了，就要往死里得罪。
你有我，你怕什么？

今天的事，就让它成为历史，只要各自兄弟不碰兄弟 就好。我和你一样是兄弟。

Introduction to Hacking. -骇客

HACKER can be categorized to three different types.
骇客 也有 分 成 3种 种类 。

白帽骇客 （The White Hat Hacker)- 他是一个专门在 黑帽骇客 下手 之前 所 进行 攻击 的骇客。简单来说 ，这个 骇客 专门 防范 与 攻击 黑帽骇客 或 坏人 下手。

黑帽骇客 (The Black Hat Hacker) - 他是一个 专门 制造 病毒来攻击别人电脑 以破坏或偷窃形式 来 获取受害者的资料以及进行破坏。

灰帽骇客 （The Grey Hat Hacker) - 他是一个 中立的骇客，他可以成为 黑帽或白帽，不断进行攻击 与 防范 来提升自己 的骇客能力。灰帽骇客 不一定是好 也不一定是坏。

HACKING 是不合法 的，所以本人接下来会 教一些基本技术，但必须在谨慎 使用，因为HACKING是不合法的。

METHODS OF ATTACK / 攻击类型 （EXAMPLE_)
Physical Way - 你想要 hack 一间公司的资料，你不懂从何下手。 你就潜入那个公司(SERVER ROOM)把自己 电脑连接 在 他们的SERVER 或进去 用 自己software install在电脑 或者 用pendrive插入电脑抄资料，接着在获取 电脑里面的资料 。

Digital Way - 简单来说 就是 你CREATE VIRUS把 VIRUS 放进那个 HOST SERVER 然后你就可以 在家 或 咖啡厅 去控制你所 放病毒 的 那个电脑

Social Engineering Way - 大家生活上 应该都会遇到的。
EXAMPLE: 有一个人 打电话 过来 告诉你 儿子 被 绑架，然后 叫你给300万，接着你就给了 。你不懂事实。这个就是 SOCIALENGINEERINGWAY
HACKING EXAMPLE : 我 CREATE 一个 phising website 把里面 弄成 一模一样的 Login page OF FACEBOOK 接着 你输入密码 资料 等。。画面告诉你 密码错误。 其实这时候已经 把密码资料传给 我电脑了。
这个是比较冒险 和 不那么理想的hacking 方法。

以上 内容纯粹 分享个人 对骇客的了解与知识。

The IDEAS

Today I and my team tried to develop an APPLICATION that builds a platform for interactions between the teachers and students.

How we get the inspiration of this?
Firstly, nowadays many students they need tuition to catch up their results or lesson in the class. Other than that, some students don't know which tuition center or teachers are suit them and be able to teach them and lead them to a better way to learning.Somehow, parents more likely annoy about of their students' tuition and teachers, because they don't know which are good nor bad. Hence, we wanted to devise a application that easily link up the students with teachers.  

What is the purpose of this app?
☩ Built a platform for teachers and students for teaching and learning.
☩ Tackle the problem that students doesn't understand 
☩ Learning with confidence 
☩ Find any suitable teachers for yourself 
☩ Teacher can get a part-time teaching job as well.

How this app works?
As a Student...
- Students can choose the subject that he/she doesn't understand with it .
- Students also can choose the teachers that teaching the subject with the ratings and feedback by students.
- If the teacher that you think are good and you like it, you can contact him/her to actualize the tuition.
- The teachers information and tuition fees will be shown up too.
As a Teacher...
-Teachers must be registered to having a interview for teaching.
-Teachers can teach any subject he/she likes, but need to strong with the subject that he/she chosen.
-Teachers will be rewarded or paid when his/her feedback or reviews is highly recommended and how many problems that he/she solved to the students.
-Teachers must be responsibility and patience to solve any questions the students don't understand.
-Teachers must often give the students some homework for quick revision.

This also act as a SCHOOL system, the students can communicate the teachers with this app. When the students have any problems, he/she also can straightly contact the teacher with this app.

The problem we foresee

-How we can assure the amateur teachers will be applying this application for teaching?

-How we can assure the students will be signing up for this application for learning?

-How we can assure the students safety?

.....

For the investor, we forecast,

Initial capital : RM3.5million

The rate of interest : 30%

Company name : X-develop

CEO: Xavier 

Management Team : Ong Zi Xian

Marketing Director: Ming Jun Lee

Finance Director :Xavier

Technology Director : Wong Yong Han

Human Resource Manager : Tan Kah Hui , Wong Yee Jing

Minha história de amor

Falling in love with someone that doesn't so understand about each other, trying to bring her attention to myself, changing myself into a way that more mature, doing so much of things to her but i don't want any of recompense for me, caring her too much that only will makes myself afraid to make her feel repulsion and lost her......

She is EmmaWatson. Undoubtedly, the one who I mention "her" is not Emma, but the temperament she has with Emma, you'll can't get a comparison. She's not beautiful as you thought, not talkative as you think, not easy to guess through her, she's the godness to me, that I told her before. She is my godness. 

Before she's 15th birthday of that day, our tuition friends and me celebrated her birthday with a getaway that day. On that day, I mustered my guts and confessed to her with using hand language as first, and at last she get it using lip reading. I asked her : Am I fell in love with you?........

Will be continued, ... 

Eccedentesiast

Eccedentesiast
(.n) Someone who hides pain behind a smile.

Undoubtedly, Eccedentesiast is just a meaning of fake smile, a person who doesn't happy but they act like they're. 

Nowadays, many of people who can't trust anyone because they had Pisanthrophobia maybe, so they could not express the feels obviously to their friends. 

"Smile because it confuses people. Because its easier than explaining what killing you inside." returned by JOKER. 

JOKER made himself a smile to laugh because he don't want let others knows about what his thinking, and then the evil grin approached.

Hey there, try to make your smile spread your happy to the friends beside you ,but not spread the sadness to your friends. If you happy, the world will be happy as well you did too, indeed.

What are you still waiting for? SMILE :D